I'm practically dead inside now. The rest of the day was super fun. But now I'm just dead. My parents completely ruined it. After the party, my dad talked to me about the party. I gave him straight answers, and he took it personally, thinking I was giving him an additude I think. At the turn at the light, he was starting to say "I'm sorry to pry into oyur life" "I'm sorry I'm asking too many questions" "I'm sorry..." with great sarcasm, like he normally does. I didn't answer him with that. I know where it was leading, so I just stayed silent. He took it as another bad thing...... again. Besides, if I were to even say anything, he would of taken it as a bad thing anyway. So.. yea. Afterwards I told him if it was okay if I could take a shower, in a nice tone mind you, as my hair was all hair-spray ish and gel-like (i used those tow things to style my hair). We finally made it home, and he told my mom saying "Don't ask too many questions or she'll get moody". My mom asked practically the same questions, and I gave her, I think, the same answers that I gave my dad. Then my dad started to rant about my additude, and my mom got into a hissy fit. Then they both jumped to the conclusion that I wanted to stay later.. and I was like: What. The. Fuck. (I didn't say that, but I sure damn look like I was) I was completely defenseless, and they were all acting like --supposedly-- they figured me out. Pshaw. It would be the apocalypse if they could do that. My mom was all saying: I'm not going to treat you like a human being anymore, I'm going to treat you like a kid. And when the whole thing was finally over, and I was in my room, my door was open so I could hear my mom say out loud purposely: You grounded. You not going to do anything next weekend except for that Horseback ride thing as Amy was persistent on that. Which means. no. trick. or. treating. No halloween. No nothing. My favorite holiday. gone. I did nothing. Seriously. And the take away my favorite holiday. To tell the truth. I feel nothing. I feel so dead inside. Like I have no purpose to live, feel, or be me anymore. But I'm crying as I type this... the keys all blurry to me. Why?

(I'm sorry that I didn't do the black background. It's just that.. I'm feel so.. screwed up that I can't pull myself to do it. Right now all I want to do it lay on my bed.. and do nothing.. feel nothing.. be nothing)

Hey all. I just came back from homecoming and I get to rest my poor feat. Yay!

Well, it was very dramatic and interesting. Well, Sean Whitley, Allie's b/f, never showed up. To for about an hour Brit, Ian, Allie, and I (there were othe people time to time) stayed at or near the gate, waiting for him. Allie called Tyler, Sean's Dad and Mom's cellphone, and Sean's house phone close to twenty times. Eventually Allie cried.

However, we held the gate open up to about 9:30, when the original time was to be 8:45, in hoeps that Sean was just late. You wanna' know how? It's funny.

We ordered pizza from Lil' Ceasers! Isn't that awsome? So four people whom I don't know, but I like anyway, Marina, Amanda, KK, Brit, Allie, Ian, Kayla and I had pizza, but while we were waiting for it, we sang jingles from comercials and got to be loud and obnoxious. It was soooo funny!

After we ate pizza, we took various pictures, one of them with all of our butts sticking out.

So afterwards anyways, Allie cheered up, and we danced the rest of the night away (about an hour's worth), and we called ourselves: The Freshmen Losers (Hell yea!).

That's the homecoming dance in a nutshell. Theres other little things how it was freezing, and for the last hour of the dance I checked in my shoes so I walked barefoot around (you should see my feat! Ewwy!).

Ta' for now.

Currently Playing Three Days Grace By Three Days Grace Just Like You see related

I'm bored.. because I have no homework and I don't feel like to practice piano. I have a feeling everyone has homework, and I don't want to annoy anyone... because I fee llike I'm annoying people. I dunno why.

What ever it is, It's making me drepessed. I think I need Anti-Depressant pills.. Heh, then I'll be a pill popper! Fun.. -_-

I'm like counting down the days til' thanksgiving break, because the day before it I get my wisdom teeth pulled, and I'm kind of nervous. Dude, when I walk in they'll give me a pill to "calm me down", and then gas me to make me sleep. Then I'll have slight anemesia (like I don't have it now), and the back of my mouth will be all bloody and slightly swollen.. and I wouldn't beable to eat any hard foods. Well, at least I don't get turkey. Blahk. Turkey.

Oh, here's some thingies I did 'cause I was bored

Yea! At least it ain't insanely stupid!

... I am a loser : P

I wish... oh, and btw, "Edhak" is an arabic-pop song that's really fun to dance to.

Ta' for now

Will my parents get this through thier heads? He ain't my boyfriend! We just like eachother. Is that crime? I dunno if we even still like eachother. *shrugs* I don't care. If he likes me, I'll like him back. If he doesn't like me anymore, I'll try my ultimate best to surpress my girlish harmones and get over with him. I did it once, I can do it again.

My parents like teasing me around with this, but at the sametime they hate the idea. Humph. Parents will be parents... no matter how evil or weird they get. They need to learn not to look over my god damn should when I'm IMing. Dude, they hate it when I look over their shoulder to read whatever their typing/writing, so what gives them the privilege to go off and do that to me? 'Specialy when it's private. Damn mother. Ne wayz.

I tried sashimi for the second time in my life, and I actually liked it. So, be proud of me, I have officially became a tuna sashimi lover (meaning I like raw Tuna. Yes, be afraid.. be very afraid).

And I had... like.. 4 tests today. 2 in which I know I got good grades in, 1 I know for sure I'll get a C or above, and the last one I have no clue. And I have another huge science test coming up (hope he'll give his at least a week's worth of studying.. A quiz on a whole unit. Ugh! So much studying.. so much study guide making).

So I'm going to go off and play DDR now.

Ta'

Yesterday I did horseback riding, and I got to ride Brandy, and she was totally fun, as usual. Oh, and Amy got a new horse, named Pufffy (cuuuuute!). He's a really cute white horse too.

After that I got to go to Lili's house, and I chatted with her, thanking her and saying sorry about friday night and stuff. Eventually we went to Borders together, and we looked at different wicca/spiritual books. I didn't get anything 'cause I didn't bring money with me, but Lili did get a Tarot Card book, and a Karmanic Palmistry Book. When we got back to her house. we did 1 and 3 card spread (doing the 3 card spread once, and we both took urns at the 1 card).

We would just ask a question while we shuffled the deck, and then put out a single card, looking up the meaning in her new book. I mostly got the good cards, and this one card, The Sun, kept on turning up since the first thing we did: the three card spread. It was slightly creepy.

Then we did a little palmistry, figuring what type of hands we had (I have a water hand. Lili and I think she has an Air Hand). Then you could tell from my palm I have an "old soul" by an M like shape on my hands, and that the lines are deep. (Since Lili is training to be a psychic, she told me I had 56 incarnations and I have roots. Go me! I've been here since the beginning of time! Neeheeheehee..). So I have an M on my hands. yea.

Then we read this other book he mom had about which type of spirit we had. Lili is a "Wise One" spirit, and I'm an "Incarnated Elemental" spirit. Those two types are suppose to be inseperable, as Wise Ones were witches and priestesses in a past life, and those peoples summon up Elementals to actually preform magick. What was scarey was the desceription that the book gave about Incarnated Elementals. It was so like me! It was like the book stalked me or something!

That's it's for now. Ta' for now.